Ramblings

I must prelude his post by saying that I have a very blessed and abundant life!! However . . .

It was a very hard week. It began with the grief and empathy I felt for the Japanese people due to their earthquake, tsumani, and nuclear crisis. I watched daily the almost apocalyptic scenes from the internet. I was struck with the complete vulnerability of the human race and if ever I wanted to envision the scene described in the Book of Mormon at the crucifixion of Christ, I needed only to look at the scenes of destruction played over and over on the news. I wanted to do more than pray or donate money. I wanted to take my family immediately to Japan and start clearing debris and mud.

Friday, I helped with a luncheon for a family that was burying their 30-year-old husband and father. He left behind 5 children, the youngest being 4 months. He was murdered in Meridian, Idaho earlier that week. It was senseless and devastating.

To the week I also added too much to do and too many places I needed to be, Grandma being hospitalized, conflicts with children and Jack being gone for a few days. At a meeting 2 weeks ago, the speaker challenged us to look in the mirror everyday and repeat the quote "I am a beloved spirit daughter of God and my life has meaning, purpose and direction." As I looked in the mirror this week, I couldn't get past the word "meaning". Does my constant whirlwind of a life have meaning or direction? I felt emotionally drained and washed out.

Sunday is the day I use to try to clean out my head and make a plan for the following week. The thought occurred to me as I was planning that I don't need to go to Japan to find someone who is downtrodden and struggling. People in need are everywhere. And I am capable of helping even if it is just helping with a luncheon.

I also worked on my blog book Sunday afternoon. Blog books are the perfect way for me to journal since I am terrible at actual journal writing. As I was reading my posts from over 2 years ago, I was reminded that life is good and that through the small and simple everyday moments, life is given meaning. So for the time being, and to remind myself of all that is mine, I'll keep sharing this imperfect and crazy view into my world through my blog.